My boyfriend and I have been together for nearly two years now, and in that time, I've grown increasingly uncomfortable with our sexual relationship. I no longer enjoy sexual intimacy, and the thought of having sex with him brings me immense distress. I have never had an orgasm, and the process of being touched or penetrated by him fills me with dread and discomfort. Despite our strong connection and our plans for a future together, I am emotionally unable to engage in sexual activity with him.
I have tried to communicate my discomfort with him touching me in a sexual manner, but he does not seem to understand or care. He suggests that it is my responsibility to "just get it over with," as if my lack of desire for sex is my fault. I feel alienated and confused by his behavior, as my own sexual needs and desires are not being acknowledged and respected. I am also concerned that our sexual relationship is affecting our relationship as a whole. He appears to be taking advantage of my emotional openness, and I fear that our partnership is heading towards a breakup if these issues remain unaddressed.
I would like to emphasize that my discomfort with our sexual relationship does not mean that I do not love my boyfriend. The fact that we have been together for nearly two years and have a strong connection suggests that we do indeed love each other. However, our sexual needs and desires are fundamentally different, and it is crucial that we find a way to establish a satisfying and intimate partnership that respects both of our needs. I hope to have the opportunity to discuss these issues with him and to work towards a more intimate and harmonious sexual relationship in the future.
